When my kids get into their "wild and free" nature, wanting to run around + stomp + make noises within their own space ---> I feel TRIGGERED AF.
I want to let out a MAMA BEAR ROAR.
IT IS SO HARD.
I have this planned day or hour to work, which feels totally sabotaged by their lack of consideration for me.
BUT THEN I remember that they are "kids". And what that means to me is they are young people who are learning about their emotions and decision making.
How I handle interactions with them will become their inner voice.
The emotions I ridicule or the actions they make that I blow up about with negatively impact them.
These little people deserve to sometimes revel in chaos.
Don't we all?
So mama does the big girl thing and takes a step back.
When I evaluate that they are SAFE and HAPPY, I let them play. Unstructured. Not controlled. Not scolded.
Just let them BE.
And my anxiety brain can take a back seat.
I can calm myself in the other room by lighting candles and putting on my favorite music.
I can sit with my discomfort and process it, rather than REACTING at them.
Because I also need to be reminded it is ok to want calmness.
To want relaxation.
To hate chaos.
It is ok that I have triggers, anxiety and unresolved trauma.
I can love myself through it without passing it on.
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Jean Soto, mother of 3 and wife, is a writer + artist in the Hudson Valley, NY community.
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