#retrograde #glass #spirituality #identity #trauma #broken #healing

Is anyone else having this kind of day? It is a retrograde thing, isn't it....

We are all experiencing a HUGE BREAK today.

IT MIGHT BE:

• A break from routine.
• A break in your relationship.
• A break in your trust.
• A break in the seamless plan you had gotten started on or have been knee deep in.
• A break in your personal image of yourself or who you have been trying to be.
• A break in the image you saw someone else as.

-------> PAY ATTENTION to these SHATTERING moments in your life.

For real, this glass shattered as I was about to fill it up for my toddler who asked me 50 million times for water while I was already juggling other tasks. After I had been meeting needs for hours and all week of kids that have not felt good and have been restless.

And I felt myself in the moment about to SCREAM, no ROAAARRR like a lion at the BREAKING of my patience.
At the last straw of me having it all together.

But then I stayed quiet. I refused. I took a breathe. And I processed.

This is replaceable.

This was avoidable.

This happens and I am still me.

Everything is still ok.

It is just a stupid cup and a stupid moment in my day.

And I refuse to lose my shit or not control myself because of things not going my way.

If I take a step back, I realize I have already survived many things SHATTERING and breaking in my life.

And what life has taught me is to pick up those pieces and move on.

It is ok to feel changed by the events that happen to me.

Of course we all change when something happens that is meant to BREAK us.

Because it does not actually break us.

We just become stronger.

It is a test.

And we pass when we prove to ourselves that we will be just fine.

And it is not just about "replacing" what is broken.

I can go buy another cup.

I can replace people, replace things...

It is not about "getting something EVEN better" or "just avoiding all the problems all together".

"From now on, I will drink from plastic."

"I will not get close to people anymore."

No.

This is about self awareness and emotional regulating.

I will continue to be me.

THIS MOMENT does not define me.

THIS MOMENT will not BREAK me.

I will be strong, resilient, calm, and happy.

And I will not limit myself from enjoying things in life.

Some things are temporary.

I will sometimes make mistakes.

And I will face these things with calmness and clarity.

It will all be ok.

What shakes us cannot break us.

Our losses will not ruin us.

What we do have temporarily we will cherish.

But then we will move forward in a healthy mindset, forgiving of the little moments and things that are not meant to last forever.

Today a glass shattered and the shards reminded me that I have seen these broken pieces before.

I have cut myself before knowing how to pick them up properly.

I have been spooked before or hard on myself for the mistakes.

But today I am ok.

I mean ---> at this moment in time, I am HERE.

And that is proof that everything you see breaking or falling apart in your life is not meant to be on your journey for the long haul.
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You are just being prepared and strengthened to receive what is meant to be yours.