I am no super model.
I have nothing to "sell".
I make decisions based on intuition.
I have tons of fucks not given.
I swear and I have crude humor.
I dye my hair any color I want and I don't always comb it. Sue me.
I won't be buying any trends or begging to be anyones friend.
And that is not some alternative lifestyle either.
I am just tired of being anything other than me.
I wear my husbands tshirts.
I'm on a hiatus from bras and anything ending in "lettes" or "lattes".
I binge Netflix and prefer most books read to me on audible because I am too ADD to sit and stare at a book.
I have degrees but my job is based on passion and inner purpose, not a piece of paper.
I have a life partner but our love is based on earning each other daily, not a stamped certificate.
And I would get a divorce if he mistreated me.
I would disown family for mistreating me.
I am a survivor of trauma. Of child abuse, neglect, emotional and physical abuses. I am a survivor of lying and cheating boyfriends. Of almost fiances that could not bet their name on a nickel.
I support real, raw and good for you choices.
If what I do is not REAL, RAW, AND ORGANIC then I do not want it in my life.
That goes for food.
That goes for people.
That goes for business.
That goes for lifestyle.
So I don't want anyone's bullshit.
I am not down for a competition.
I am not looking for a battle.
I am not in it to win.
I do not want to gossip.
I don't care who is dating who.
I don't extend my nose passed my own face.
I don't ponder the greener grass. I'm busy trying to water my own.
So please don't offer me synthetic self esteem, beauty, or love.
I am not up for catching up with anyone that ever left me: NOT EXES, OLD FRIENDS OR FAMILY. ----> Because the exit sign does not have a revolving door.
I will never enable trauma, abuse, sexism, or any oppression's.
I will not laugh at anyone's racist memes, because its just the "popular thing to do."
I will say something if I see something.
I will report your ass if you do bad shit.
If someone steals from me, I'll take the compliment but leave ego at the door.
I am not an original mind.
I am a melting pot of the most beautiful concepts and positivity I can find, and my only wish is to offer what I create to those who believe in it. ♡
Published by Jean Soto JS Jaded Savior blog: email@example.com
Jean Soto, mother of 3 and wife, is a writer + artist in the Hudson Valley, NY community.
Content mention of Rape, Abuse, Neglect, Addictions, Mental Illness, Kidnap, Molestation, Child abuse, Teen Pregnancy, Abortion, birth, body image, gender/identity dysphoria, sexuality, personal trauma, domestic violence and other extremely personal stories. Please practice caution. I am not a licensed physician or mental health professional. No medical prescribing is provided on this site, Only personal insights, experience stories, and advice; All stories published have had prior authorization. Questions? Contact Jean at: firstname.lastname@example.org
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