What does it do for me when you share my posts, my blog articles, my poetry or my personal stories?
When you share my work, you are giving me validation of the deepest kind.
I only officially started to blog about my life and experience with trauma a month ago, but I have been writing for over a decade.
It is only now that I am finally going public about trauma + the road to recovery.
I am a survivor of child abuse, sexual abuse, physical and emotional abuse from partners, I was a teen mother, a single mother, a minor legally divorced from her parents, and in poverty my whole life.
What I do now is live with my husband, raising our 3 kids from home. They are my priority. My stability.
I work from home in our family run business and I blog create websites / branding for clients.
I also write for www.jadedsavior.com, a mental health blog for trauma survivors and healers.
I chose to start a blog to tie together my past college education and internship experiences.
I was a college graduate from Stony Brook with a BA in Women's Studies and English. There I was in 2 different organizations, for social justice and anti discrimination. I also wrote for the college newspaper in my community college as well as got featured in the SBU paper about my life experiences.
In 2015 I received an acceptance letter to the MSW social work program. I turned that MA program down and decided instead to move with my partner to start a family, now 4 years ago.
Currently, I am immersing myself into an education once again but from my home office. I study trauma and mental health. I read, write, and research topics like anxiety, abuse, depression, PTSD and other disorders.
I do this so I can start to understand and dismantle my own mental problems.
I do this to heal.
When I share my work on social media, I do it for all of you, and for me.
I want to put myself out there. Finally.
I want to empower others with my work.
When you share my words, you give me purpose.
I have always had big dreams, since I was a little girl alone in my room writing in a notebook. Since I was hiding away from my abusive parents and wishing up plans for college. I always dreamed of becoming an author and artist as a career, to change lives doing what made my own soul happiest.
This year I decided the only thing keeping me from that dream is my trauma.
The anxiety, depression, and post traumatic stress that had crippled me for many years, has whispered lies in my head.
I have always thought that I should silently get passed my trauma so I can finally heal.
I want to become successful once I have crossed over to the "other side of trauma."
But in 28 years, I have never felt cured. I feel broken.
I realize now if I want success, the priority needs to be inner growth and then prosperity will follow.
Every day, day by day, I write and I learn. I grow and I stand taller.
I also tell myself not to activate my anxiety. That I have the power to control it.
I do not count the "likes", "shares", or "followers" on my pages like tallies on my self esteem board. It is not about attention. It is about impact. And it is obtained only through healthy minded action.
I want to inspire and empower people, no matter what the quantity is.
There is no sales funnel for this. No get rich quick scheme. No business model.
What I am doing is organically sharing myself, trying to be seen so I can view myself from a new perspective.
As someone who is taking the healthy steps towards building a life I love.
So thank you to all the people who see ME.
Who show up for me and cheer me on because they want to hear what I have to say.
Who message me that my work resonates with them.
Who share with me their own intimate details, their trauma and the rawest parts of their souls.
Those of you who do that, and even those of you who feel it but hesitate, are making my work matter.
This is no popularity contest. My lot in life is to inspire and empower people. To encourage personal development and self education.
To show you that all you need in order to "be successful" has been hiding within you all along.
Published by Jean Soto JS Jaded Savior blog: email@example.com
Jean Soto, mother of 3 and wife, is a writer + artist in the Hudson Valley, NY community.
Content mention of Rape, Abuse, Neglect, Addictions, Mental Illness, Kidnap, Molestation, Child abuse, Teen Pregnancy, Abortion, birth, body image, gender/identity dysphoria, sexuality, personal trauma, domestic violence and other extremely personal stories. Please practice caution. I am not a licensed physician or mental health professional. No medical prescribing is provided on this site, Only personal insights, experience stories, and advice; All stories published have had prior authorization. Questions? Contact Jean at: firstname.lastname@example.org
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