I want to talk to you about a really raw topic that has previously kept me SMALL and SCARED.
I've decided this year, at 29, that I want to show up NAKED.
What does that mean?
I want to present myself, my soul work, and my passion as authentically as possible.
My goal is NOT TO BASH, BUT TO DISMANTLE the beauty standards.
To connect us all in a higher way.
To stand up for the women who do not feel all put together.
I struggle with depression and anxiety daily. My days consist of raising 3 kids at home while my husband is mostly away for work. We barely make ends meet and struggle a lot. It feels scary and I feel like I am in survival mode every single day.
Aside from that, like many of you struggle with, I have comparisonitis.
I see all these upper class + insta perfect and pinterest worthy lifestyles on social media WHICH IS MANY STEPS UP ABOVE ME.
It makes me feel inferior knowing I've come from poverty, trauma and abuse ----> every time I look around me or in the mirror I see a girl that looks nothing like the "healthy and well" women who have it all.
For the last 5 years, I've seen the women with amazing marketing and branding + professional photographs + perfect wardrobe get all the things I've never had.
And I've thought to myself, NO SUCCESSFUL PERSON LOOKS LIKE I DO.
I must need to change.
But in order to change, I need money ---> resources ---> to become something I currently am not and have never been.
While I now know that self worth does not come from the Ks in our account, it took me a long time to understand that.
To understand myself as well as other people. Who we all are, deep down. And what we all feel, in spite of how much or how little we have.
I also realized that there are so many women out here like myself who have HID.
If you have nothing in your bank account or very little to your name.
If you have a curvy or skinny, over weight or underweight, scarred, handicapped, or broken body.
If your skin is imperfect and your eye sight is not perfect and your teeth are crooked.
If you have blemishes, pimples, rosacea, large pores, under eye circles, yellowed eyes, discoloration, dryness, hyperpigmentation, or other issues like eczema, psoriasis etc.
If you have big breasts, small breasts, no breasts, uneven breasts. Have had surgery of any kind. Feel disproportionate.
IF YOU NEVER DO YOUR EYEBROWS OR WAX OR SHAVE ----> STOP HIDING.
If your hair is all different shades and bleached out as fkkkk, if you are bald or balding, if you do your own hair or have never done a thing to it. If you are lucky to put a comb in it every so often ---> STOP HIDING.
IF YOUR MENTAL HEALTH IS SLIPPING CONSTANTLY, YOU FEEL LIKE THIS LIFE IS SURREAL OR STRUGGLE MOMENT TO MOMENT TO BE PRESENT ---> STOP HIDING.
I am here now and will show up more on the days I feel low, because it is a feeling I fabricated from irrational thoughts around worthiness.
I am so many great things all wrapped up in a unique package. I have overcome so much and can teach others so many helpful lessons about life and success. Success like setting goals and finding the resources to achieve them.
I am creative and imaginative. Progressive. Powerful.
I am so many things.
And I have hid because I thought I was not beautiful. Or wealthy. Or wise enough to speak.
I thought no one would listen to me.
But I was wrong.
And so are you.
Sometimes BOLD and playing it BIG mean speaking softly, just the words you previously feared saying out loud.
Sometimes BOLD and playing it BIG means wearing no makeup to a first date or job interview and letting your skills + confidence shine without hiding what you hate most about yourself.
It's letting people see YOU.
You in your NAKED truths.
You, without the POMPS AND FRILLS.
You, without the BELLS AND WHISTLES.
You, without a K to your name.
You, in all your glory.
I want you to know that you are so perfect right now in all your human form.
Flaws and all.
I want to ask you to stop saying flaw or flawless.
I want you to feel safe in this space ----> because we are the creators.
You have so much MAGIC stored up and unaccessed.
All that knowledge, all the words unspoken, all the feelings you keep inside ----> I am so eager to hear you and see you!!
So STOP HIDING.
I cannot wait to watch you shine. ♡♡♡
J.S. Jaded Savior
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