"A Home in Me" by Jessie Ptak, and how poetry heals our hearts.

 I get a lot of anxiety while riding in the car, especially with my babies in the back.
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It's not because of the car accidents I have experienced or the car sickness I sometimes feel.

It's not because of the memories I have of being in the car with my parents or scary car ride I once rode in the backseat of a drunk driver refusing to pull over.

I'm afraid of losing something good.

I do not want anything to take away the ones that I love most.
My kids.
My husband.

It feels hard to risk losing something I finally have after so many years of trauma and abuse.

All the obstacles I've overcome led me to 3 beautiful children and a relationship with a partner who is my best friend ------ I would travel to hell and beyond to protect them.

Love is at the epicenter of my healing and strength as a survivor.

Love has always kept me going, fighting, and pushing for more in life.

Whenever I was in an abusive situation, i knew it was not the answer or life meant for me.

I was not meant for a long life of destruction and dysfunction.

I just refused to believe that.

I now love my life, even though I'm still traveling towards awareness + good health + prosperity.

Love is what has set me free every time I've had struggles.

This past winter, I had a break through in my mindset and healing when I surrendered to all that is not perfect in myself.

I chose to just love me through the hard stuff.

The anxiety. Depression. PTSD.

The imperfections and mistakes.

The more I follow love, the closer I get to building the puzzle of my life. It is attracting the right friendships, opportunities and passions. Love is giving me a purpose in this world.

No one ever put any of these emotions into words like Jessie Ptak has.

While I normally sit anxiously in the passenger seat on long drives, today I followed my intuition and grabbed her book " a home in me " for the ride.

I do not just feel calm right now.

I feel understood.

Deeply.

♡ J.S. Jaded Savior


Jessie Ptak is a Poet from New York, who creates magic with every verse she writes. She shares her work mostly on twitter, and has many creative projects releasing this year [2020], including another poetry book. https://twitter.com/jessmariewrites 

Get a copy of this one here: 

https://www.amazon.com/home-me-jessie-ptak/dp/1702412652
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