#selfidentity #empowerment #personalgrowth #healing #math #identity #anxiety #PTSD

Your progress is not the sum of everyone else's support.

If you want to grow + expand your mindset and do something, you just have to do it and with your own motivation.

Your motivation can be seen as rock bottom. It might be that you never again want to be or feel alone. Or the way that you just did.

It could be the FINAL disappointment you faced and consciously decided no MORE of that.

Motivation does not have to be pretty.

And guess what?

Some people's reactions wont be pretty either.

What it has taken for you to change your life around, ONLY YOU KNOW.

YOU are the creator of your own LIFE story.

And whatever it takes to write a better future---> as long as it is healthy and wise ---> DO IT.

ONLY NON SUPPORTERS WILL SHOW UP TO SHADOW YOUR HAPPINESS.

And you do not need them anyways.

IF YOU ARE THINKING:

■ I DON'T HAVE THE MONEY TO CHANGE
■ I DON'T HAVE THE TIME TO CHANGE
■ I DON'T HAVE THE RESOURCES TO CHANGE

Know that the only thing going on right now is your fear is trying to talk you down.
Anxiety and depression are fighting for the SOAP BOX to tell you that your story has already been written "and it's a tragic one".

That is not true.

It is not logical.

Here's a thought that is though.

If you show up, you are bound to change.

AND SHOWING UP IS FREE.

NO ENTRY TICKET.

NO DOOR CHARGE.

If you show up for progress, you not only have a free pass but you get to choose what you take with you beyond the door.

BONUS DEAL, not everything is going to fit so you will need to travel light.

BUT WAIT, THERE'S MORE....

Whatever does not fit in your life simply will be too heavy to carry on your journey.

And there is no time on your ticket.

You can SHOW UP whenever you want to.

Even if it is someone else's birthday or a holiday or mid breakup or a call to get away during a time others needed you.

You earned this ticket.

Any damn time you feel like accessing it.

I decided I need to be better.

Even though I'm poor.

Even though I have depression, anxiety and CPTSD.

Even though I don't have a set career.

Even though I don't have my own place to live.

Even though it's a Friday and a random time in the year.

EVEN THOUGH MY ANXIETY TELLS ME I HAVE TO START ON THE "FIRST OF THE MONTH" IN MY PLANNER OR ELSE IT WON'T COUNT AND I WILL FAIL LIKE I ALWAYS DO.

Anxiety is kind of a c*nt.

I need money to change, but not alot.

In the reality of reality, if I ask for donations in order to help me grow ----> a simple dollar donation from someone will get me [say it with me] ONE DOLLAR CLOSER TO THE HELP I NEED].

EXPANSION AND FEARS ARE ANTONYMS HERE.

You have to strip yourself of shame, worry, and what ifs.

ANXIETY IS NOT CONSIDERED CARRY ON.

So understand this.

You CAN. NO. YOU WILL FIND THE ANSWERS, SO LONG AS YOU START ASKING THE QUESTIONS.
So... do the work.

Ask for help.

Research your options.

Type in "free resources for .....".

Email a non -profit Organization that works with Trauma + Mental Health + Education + Transformation.
Whatever your unhealthy or undesirable struggles are ----> an answer awaits you.

The solution is just to SHOW UP.
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J.S. Jaded Savior

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