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Tonight, sitting in the bathroom and writing inside the tiniest binder I have ever found, I am setting some intentions for my personal growth and healing journey.
I am writing to the Universe and speaking my truths. ♡ ☆☆○☆☆ I have decluttered and organized mine and my spouses little bedroom + our kids little bedroom to show love and appreciation for it. After almost 5 years living in my in laws place for help while we struggled, showing frustration and circling in my small space like a stressed out tigress ----> I have finally surrendered to this space. Instead of letting my depression paint these walls and the caving in of unintentional space being taken up sink me further ----> I have utilized the rebirthing energy I have had all day long to RECLAIM THIS SPACE. Tonight I am thankful for the JOURNEY and I am telling it this was all great for my growth but I am ready for MORE. I gave my three kids who share their little room a bunch of space and organization now to sit and play with intention, to display their art, and appreciate the fact that they share it all with love and joy. It is hard to feel JOY when you do not feel like you can BREATHE in your space. I have never known what it feels like to have a HOME of my own. I never went to bed feeling safe in my bed or like it was a place I could miss. I've always been ready to roam, no weights on my ankles or reason to hold myself back. I write in this little book my complete desire for HOME. A HOME FOR MY FAMILY. A HOME FOR MY PASSIONS. A HOME FOR MY HEART. I cannot wait to speak unto the Universe for my biggest dreams and goals, without fears that my ink spilled in waste. I am ready to receive as well as believe I am worthy of more. More growth. More love. More joy. My bookshelf is now only filled with the books that will bring my future closer to me. An alter space has now been created with my favorite photos + mantras + the start of my crystal collection and my money jar. I have wishes in tiny corked bottles and a magical little purple bag with stars that holds other intentions and wishes. I am stepping into my power as I finish off 2019 and it feels so good. Like a door is closing and I'm now looking forward on a path paved just for me. ♡ J.S. Jaded Savior
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On December 11th I wrote a text to the Universe [and my email address]. I asked for specific blessings of the things my heart wanted.
Since that afternoon, with tears of anxiety and fear in my eyes, I have anxiously repeated my list. Not because I was dying to receive objects..... Because I was dying to be heard. And seen. And valued. By myself. By others. By the universal energy that provides. And I've learned something since that you may find quite valuable. I did not receive any of it without first asking. First I knocked on the universe's door. Then I began writing intuitively each day. Pouring my heart out and sharing my vulnerability without criticizing myself for my: NEEDS DESIRES GRAMMAR TIMING TRUTHS I decided not to police myself or lecture myself about etiquette or principals. Not to say "stop asking for things and silently work on them." The truth is, when we silence ourselves it's like putting a cap on a candle. We snuff out our own hopes and dreams. We suck the air right out and then cry when we find the dead things. The things we wish we had. The things we wanted or needed so badly but refused to show up asking for. Every day I read my list and I thank the universe for it all. Some of the things in there include "an unexpected apology" and "a thank you note". "The ability to give JOY." "The ability to receive JOY." My heart felt called that day to write out many things that served myself and others. Every day since, I have been in awe as I watch it all unfold before me. As I see the beautiful affects of allowing my heart to breathe. Friends -- write your letter. And do not tuck it away in your mind or a notebook. Keep it out. Read it out. Tattoo the words on your heart. Instead if reciting discomfort, speak the things you wish into reality. ♡ The answers are often waiting at the tip of your fingers and tongue. J.S. Jaded Savior |
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