#selfproclamations #identity #truths #vulnerability #straightface #smiling​

Can we just finally come out and say it?

Resting B**th face SUCKS as a term.

I am mostly serious in my expressions.

I am not bright and bubbly every day, even though I am empathic and super passionate about many things.

My facial expression often embodies that of a calm horizon, my skin feeling the warmth captured within my eyes.

I have a STRAIGHT mouth, parallel to my eyebrows ----> serious as $Hit face.

And I will not apologize for it.

Though it does feel AAAAHHMMAAAZING to embrace my smile when I love something or feel a burning passion in the experience I have when I FEEL joy -----> that is not me MOST OF THE TIME.

I have been told not to "show I feel bad" because it may turn people off.

I have been told not to "show such seriousness" because it may make people get the wrong idea of my character.

I have been asked "WHAT'S WRONG?!" hundreds of thousands of times since I was a young girl for having a:

■ B!tch face
■ Attitude
■ Sour expression
■ Depressing look

And all that it did for me was reaffirm the fact that we as INDIVIDUALS do not need to ALWAYS smile.

In fact, I promise you that your emotional state or self esteem are NOT reflecting through the amount of teeth you show.

There have been plenty of times I have smiled for pictures or in front of others just to PASS AS OK.

There have been plenty of "B faced" moments when I was really just in deep thought, had to pee, had a sudden calmness or just----> wait for it.....

DID NOT EFFEN FEEL LIKE SMILING.

And all of that is OK.

Because your face is not showing up to the party for anyone.

And whatever you are feeling, it is important you honor those feelings----> even at the expense of looking a way that someone will not understand or want to question.

And ALSO, if you just do not feel like it---> it is YOUR RIGHT not to smile.

I am so sick of women in society being labeled as B!tches for not smiling.

I tell my daughter all the time that all her feelings are valid and she can express them however she chooses.

As will I.

Though I should be self aware of my emotions, I will not police my face for wanting to:

□ chill
□ relax
□ meet the horizon
□ mimmick the sunset
□ meet nobodies expectations.

And I applaud all of you SERIOUS women who honor your own movements and emotions the way YOU want to ---> without having to carry the bullshit guilt others try so desperately to place on everyone else but themselves.

I am a complex woman with many emotions and full awareness.

This straight face is me choosing the autonomy to just BE.

At the expense of leaving my true mood up to mystery for others...

Or encouraging people to just "ask" if they want to know so badly what is in my head or my heart.

J.S. Jaded Savior 

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